Frustration...........Ugh.

So sometimes I wonder why other people seem to be so stuck in the past. It really makes no sense. The past is the past and that is all ever will be. Nothing else will come of it. For four years now I have had to deal with "a certain unnamed person" that was in Ryan's life. It is like no matter what happens she refuses to move on. Just when I think that she has come to terms with the fact that I am in his life, we take 2 steps back. I mean for goodness sake we are married, if this does not give the clue that we are going to be together forever, I don't know what does. I really would not care except for the fact that Ryan and I get excluded from things for simple fact that she is "uncomfortable" with us around. I know that it bothers him when it comes to certain things we may never be invited. I understood for awhile, it takes time for one to get over a break up. But 4 years, this is getting a little excessive. Sometimes I wonder if she does feel uncomfortable or if she just claims to be so that we will be excluded. I guess I am aggravated, I do not like to see Ryan get excluded from fun things because of me. He tells that it will be okay and that he chose this path and if it means he will be excluded, then so be it. It should not have to be this way!

"When God Winks"

For Christmas I received a book called, "When God Winks." Basically, it is all about how many coincidences in life are not really just coincidences, but God guiding you. The coincidences are "God's Winks."I found the title of the book intriguing and started to read it about a week ago. It is a rather short book and easy to read. I finished the book last night and I loved it. It made me think of so many instances in my life where things happened and I never gave them a second thought, then later that event led to an positive turn in my life. I definitely recommend this book for anyone. Happy Thursday!

2008, Here I Come!

I cannot believe how fast 2007 flew by. It was an exciting year for Ryan and I. We got married, got Brodie, and bought our house, and much more. Now that 2008 has arrived I have decided that I need to decide to focus on things to better myself. So with that comes my New Year's resolutions.

1. Eat healthier and exercise regularly. This is alway on my list in one form or another, but this year I decided that I don't need to lose a certain amount of weight or be a certain size, I just need to lead a healthier lifestyle.

2. Worry less. I am a huge worry wart and it makes me so stressed at times. When I am stressed it affects my productivity and I am usually crabby to Ryan. So this year I want to focus on positives things and do my best not to worry about things that are out of my control.

3. Do not procrastinate. If I do not want to do something I generally just put it off, but this only makes it worse. So this year I am going to approach these things with a get it done and over with attitude. This will be especially important since I am going to start grad school soon. With working 40+ hours a week, plus getting an MBA, I will not have time for procrastination.

4. This one is most important to me. I want to start building a stronger connection with God. I used to attend church on a regular basis and now it is a rarity. So my first task for the new year is to find a church for Ryan and I that we will look forward to attending every week.

I am looking forward to a wonderful and blessed 2008. I wish everyone a happy and healthy 2008!