Well I know I have been absent for awhile and I apologize, but I have been delaying this post, hoping that if I didn't actually write about it maybe it would not be reality. But then I decided that I would probably feel better if I just talked about how I feel.
There is certainly one thing I love about blogging, I can let it all out, I do not have to worry about hurting any one's feelings, being the strong one, and I can just shed all my fears. Even if no one reads this I will still feel better, that I am sure of.
It all started almost two weeks ago. I received a call from home that my older sister Jess was in the hospital for a severe kidney infection. She has been sick many times these last several months and now this. She is so tired all the time and really is not herself. Something was wrong, they knew that. After some tests, they found out her blood levels were in the 7's, which they should be in the 13's according to her weight (about 7% of body weight). The decision was made to give her two units (bags) of blood. She started to feel much better after getting the blood and being on antibiotics for the infection in her kidneys. So now they know she is losing blood somehow and just need to figure out why. They did several tests, none of which has told us why this is happening. She is now home, with her blood level in the 9's. She is seeing a hematologist on Friday. I hope we find some answers. I don't understand why everything takes so long, if she is this sick, why does it take so long to get in to the specialist? They have given us several reasons, several of which are very scary, so right now I would rather not put them in writing. Please pray for my sister, she is only 28, with two kids, I am just so scared for her and praying and hoping for everything to be okay.
Along with this, my husband's mom told us yesterday that her best friend found out that she has stage 3-4 cancer in her ovaries and it has spread all over down in that area. They told her she has 25% of living up to 5 years. Just last week she went to the doctor because she was having a pain in her stomach area, he told her it was nothing but indigestion, she got a second opinion and now knows she will be facing the biggest fight of her life. She is such a sweet person, I just don't get it.
Thanks for letting me get this all out. I really do feel a little better.